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Friday, September 24, 2010

Ummmm

Because you receive food coupons in the mail does not mean you have to use them!
Ok, so I'm talking about me. Some Burger King coupons touting "BOGOF" came in the mail last week and I never took them out of the car. I was hungry coming home one night and saw this blue paper between the seats and pulled it out. Oh My! The Hungires were dancing for joy! Burger King coupons! Mind you I haven't eaten at a burger king probably since I left MD!!! Chik fil let is my fast food of choice these days. Oh, yeah, Me and the hungries drove to burger king and got a grilled chicken sandwich (meal) and the "free" chicken sandwich too!! After all it was buy one get one free!!! The 2nd sandwich became breakfast the next day.
Then the next day for lunch I used another coupon and got a chicken sandwich (meal) and gave the 2nd one to Pastor Bob for his lunch. And the next day too!
And wadda ya know, on the way home last night I passed another burger king - well I hadn't used up all the coupons yet!!! This time I got a Whopper (two!). Saved the 2nd for breakfast this morning on my way to my exhibit with the excuse that I probably wouldn't get to eat (I didn't need to eat EVER!) I can't believe I ate a Whopper - two!!!! 

Let me tell you about burger king... I'm gonna need a series of colonics that's what!!
Today I went grocery shopping. No more burger king, no more lapses.
Been doing step aerobics in the mornings...gotta get moving. Again. (Smooh Move will help, too!)
Thank God you can always begin again.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Letting go is definitely NOT easy...

It's been another week since I've written...I do good, I do not so good. Not with not writing but with not staying committed to what I want to achieve. I want to lose the unwanted weight yet that which I want to do I do not do and that which I do not want to do I do! UGH! The Flesh is definitely weak! As long as I am not in the midst of temptation I do well but let me be hungry and be around food...any food...and I get right on board the glutton train.
Spent a whole week eating "sensibly" - really, really, really good! Went to MD for my grandson's birthday and his party was at "Chuck E. Cheese's" house (kids = noise). I had eaten earlier (like 7 a.m.) and the birthday stuff was at noon - not exactly noon 'cause you gotta wait for most of the peeps to arrive, order the food (pizza, hot wings...) and eventually find the kids that have disappeared into the bedlam of twinkling lights, moving parts and the scramble for tickets! By the time any of that had taken place I'd swiped a few finger fulls of icing off my grandson's cake and was about to wrestle a four year old  (from another table) for his food!
Never get so hungry you'd eat pizza from rat...yeah Chuck is a rat...albeit a fun rat to the kids!

Sunday, September 12, 2010

A pat on the back

OMG!! I've been consistent!! Last night doesn't count though. Anyway, since I last wrote I've been consistently putting my "glutton" impulse in check and it's worked!!!! Happy Dance!! Yea!! First week: I have nothing - repeat NOTHING in my house that would remotely call it self "snack" or "comfort food"! So even though I repeatedly opened the freezer and the refrigerator looking for something there was nothing there for me to "curl up on the sofa" with and indulge myself!  Tough Love. Then I bought some Kashi cereals (13 grams of protein!), Special K meal bars and Special K protein drinks, fruit (apples and frozen mixed fruits) and yogurt (Publix brand). Except for the occasional salad with salmon that's all I ate! The cravings subsided considerably and as long as I made certain I ate every three hours ( a bar or a drink or an apple) I didn't get hungry and didn't think "food". Third week or so I was feeling good not stuffed  and defintiely not hungry. Of course I'm not around "other food" so it's been working for me - especially since I've not been searching out my favorite - snickers anything!
Last night I went to a stage play and at intermission they had water, soda or chocolate chip cookies for a donation of $1.00.  I bought the cookie. Not impulsively - that was the good part (I guess) but I didn't want soda and the water would have made me run to the potty. So I ate the cookie. Bad. Not just a bad idea but a bad cookie. It was DRY! And the sugar went straight to my brain I got dizzy!!! I ended up drinking so much water trying to flush the taste et al out of my system I had to go anyway!!!! I should have DONATED the $1.00. I'm still learning y'all. I'm still learning.
Today has been a good day, cereal for breakfast (measured out 1 cup!), a protein drink around 11 (right before service) and a protein bar on the way home around 1:30 and an apple. Water when I got home. Tonight I plan to have a salmon salad but we'll see what I feel like by "dinner" time! Ciao!

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Plugging along....

It is most difficult to corral your thoughts! Especially in "the world". Lord knows I want to persevere but I don't think I got that gene! The only reason I'm fixated on a snickers right now is because I know there is one in the refrigerator right now! I won't go buy one but let one be anywhere in the same vicinity as me...it's all I think about!!! Been holding out though...keeping to my "goal". Ate a pear, got an apple. Had lunch (hmmm shrimp and pasta & veggies!), water (not enough though) and a handful of cheez its (one of those 100 calorie packs). I did treat myself to some pecan sandies (another 100 calorie snack) and now it's almost 3:30 pm and I'm thinking about dinner!!!!
This is insane!  I was drawing for awhile which keeps my mind occupied then I realized I didn't bring all the tools I need to complete a drawing! AAArrrggghhhh! I can work on it but it's irritating when you don't have what you need! But anything to keep me out of the kitchen!!!

Haven't done any kind of movement in the past week. NO movement that exerts you - gets your metabolism burning! I've moved from the sofa to the kitchen and upstairs or back downstairs but that not enough to burn off the fat! Something's gotta give - I gotta give up something....quick! Until then I'll just keep plugging along, day by day, one foot in front of the other.

NO MORE SNICKERS! I don't want it, I don't want it, I don't, I don't! Whew, glad I got that out! Feel better already! I have to admit though I have been good!!! Yesterday I got gas at the only QT station I KNOW sells snickers brownie ice cream sandwiches! And I did NOT go inside (though I gave myself every reason I could think of to get one!!) - no snickers for me!!!!! I'm done! (almost!). I'll take the kudos anyway I can get them!!! LOL! I'm not even replacing them for something else - I'm good!!! I'm not denying myself just not eating what I know will send me over the edge and not eating out of control by staying aware of what I'm eating and how much.

I'm good. Today.